Boy and His Faltering Comet

In familiar city with many statue of honour, a single life exist. Dim faintly amongst the flickering denials, staying low, and feet are used to wander away. His favourite place are abandoned five stories building in the suburban area, with a withered sofa as a comfort place and snacks that he always borrow when going there. In here are like a safehaven for his soul and mind, to gaze upon the many flickering dots beyond the Stratosphere, to looking back at time.

From his gap of breathing, the feeling of sad are overwhelming, even though he just calm and not broken down. Up there, he also read books, many kind and that what makes him more smarter than anyone. 

He had a love with a girl whom he often talk with whenever they had the chances. A girl with a shorthair and petite stature, which to his eyes are like Dandelion in human form. Her name contains a meaning of star and flower alike, with eyes so clear like the water of Maldives and hair so silky, he unconsciously stroke suddenly.

His age now is 20 years old, in 1990, time where invention and vision slowly dies like a worthless object of interest. His life are so normal, but his mind are so distant, so alienated, fifty years to early, felt like a curse. He captures everything finely with his stare; street, people, and moments. All stored and called as a Time, in his brain.

He was born there, but never belong. Unnamed father and unnamed mother, his name for him are also nothing. Struck by crisis, he then wandering, learning, and understanding, "life is not fair" is what he gets. Being non-functional as a human, in the verge of losing self, and emotion, depression walk into the stage.

And his love, are taken by else, on the park with lively green and cloud so beautiful like a sign if fate never sided with him ever. He despises hope as how he despises God and whatever they called. All about him are only dying, no tears left to shed, feeling lost.

So he stare, at above of head, the other sea with different kind of fish, at night, whispering so gentle as if it sounded like a pray.

"Just take me away, even from myself"

At Sunday, he packed his stuff, leaving, after the day prior he saves two children when Earthquake occurs in Hospital, by shielding them with his body. The city is wrecked but not in extreme way, so he buys a ticket of train and go to another city, hundred kilometres away. The city is but a cold and quiet place, little higher for they are one kilometre above sea level.

At night, on a rented house, he stares to sky again, witnessing a Comet pass by so magnificently. The comet are just like him, faltering, not in a perfect line. How something so beautiful and awesome are ended up missing and forgotten, bothers him alot.

As a portal opened in the hill, next day, he already lost and one look to the back, to this time of his era. What else to have? what else to love? what else to home? when nothing are there. To the portal, he walks, to the time, he succumb.

Little the world knows, they just lost something important.

10 - 06 - 1990

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His name contains Sky and Sea